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Every day children die from long drawn out painful debilitating diseases [cancer is one].
This poem is just my reminder to love our family and those that come in our path As if it was their last day. Make it count!

too many today
are holding
their little one
with all their might
soft touch
hoping
to save their life,
pain too much
disease too strong
as they sing
one last song,
earth’s thistles
and weed
extreme fight
tears
cannot hide
the tragedies,
no reason
for sickness
for grieving,
the pain
spur
to pray
hope
strength
reason
stir,
love
release
of life
is hardest easy
to learn…©.

beverleyholes
october 5, 2013

ChildCancerRibbonMagnet

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The truth so help me God.

Surreal God moment that I did not orchestrate.
It was a compulsion to write, yes it was cathartic and yes it changed my life forever.

I don’t do something of this magnitude (writing my life story exposing secrets of my heart) in a rash way.
I thought, prayed, weighed it time and again. But there was a moment of no return; Through tears and sobs and soul’s agony as the words began to pour out.

60 days to write and 10 years in draft format then to the publisher. All our life savings and what seem to be a thousand conversations, legalities, explanations, edits and approvals.

I remember the day my husband and i went to the publisher – my hubby waited in the car as I went inside. It was like a spiritual walk. I was taken to the conference room and actually feeling a little anxious. The lady in charge of my book entered the room and after a few formalities gave me the first copy. Holding it close meant I was holding my whole life and others close to my heart. I have to admit it was a huge surreal moment.

The copy of the book was a result of a type of birth that should not be trifled with but looked at, touched, felt and cherished, examined, loved even, but then again that’s an author’s viewpoint.

At first I thought family and friends supported ME and FEET FIRST.
It was false. Many lacked courage to read it. Many felt by reading somehow betrayed my mother.

Yes I faced disappointment.
The question was asked of me: “why you? Why did you have to write it, there are thousands of books written about abuse?”

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Truth doesn’t always give the response you expect.
Truth doesn’t mean you don’t love.
In fact courage to speak truth for me was the greatest love.

I found that in speaking truth brought an array of disappointments.

Some read the book in critical condescending ways with a criticism to find ways to destroy my credibility. Others got bits and pieces from the book via another’s negative opinion thereby tarnishing what would have been something special for them.

I have tried to overlook that part of the disappointment for many reasons.

Then there were numerous people via the Internet, amazon, book signings came a multitude of comments, emails, thank you’s and calls. Simply an unexpected humbling experience.

Do I give up because some would not support my efforts?
No!
I am in the draft process of the manual that would accompany Feet First.

It has been mind-boggling when I think of the people who have contributed to the manual.

I am humbled AND honored by the path to each one of them.

I know I may not have a ‘come over for tea on Saturday and we’ll chat’ type relationship but my life has been enriched by them, their values, blogs, books, heart.

I took 9 months off; a type of sabbatical from the manual because I felt physically drained but I’m ready to get cracking again toward its completion.

I pray someday that all of my family would have the courage to read my book Feet First.

I do hope many more will  read Feet First on sale at amazon or available from our office. It’s okay you can love it or hate it; your choice.

If you are willing to do a review I will give you a complimentary hard copy or Ebook format.

Here are three ways to purchase Feet First from Amazon:
Amazon UK

Amazon .COM

Amazon.CA
Or by email at:  feetfirstbook@gmail.com

It’s silly to say I wrote a book for no one to read it. I want people to read it and be blessed or the very least, a book to read.

Childhood abuse can cast a long shadow over your life influencing your emotional state, psychological state, physical state, health and how you relate to others. I believe I learned that while writing the book as the author of my life story and so much more as I am writing this second book.

I guess that gives clarity of why I wrote Feet First. I would like to lighten the shadow on the lives of my siblings, my family, my friends, my world. To personally make a positive impact on anyone that would allow my words to enter their world. To expose abuse for what it is and be willing to warn, to educate.

Patty Rase Hopson said that Abuse changes your life…Fight Back and change the life of your abusers by Breaking Your Silence on Abuse!

I believe this initial step puts the control of your life back into your hands and a necessary step toward healing and recovery.  I also sincerely believe it will help thousands in peril at this very moment.

feet first for print FINAL

For not only does sound reason direct us to refuse the guidance of those who do or teach anything wrong, but it is by all means vital for the lover of truth, regardless of the threat of death, to choose to do and say what is right even before saving his own life. A.W. Tozer

Truth has no special time of its own. Its hour is now – always.   Albert Schweitzer

Even in literature and art, no man who bothers about originality will ever be original: whereas if you simply try to tell the truth (without caring twopence how often it has been told before) you will, nine times out of ten, become original without ever having noticed it.”
― C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity

Thanks for reading my bLoG!

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I have already started my 30 Days of Thankfulness but I would like to share those thoughts from that challenge right here on my blog.

This was my Day 1 of the 30 Days of Thankfulness Challenge.

Day 1- I am thankful today for my Husband.
He is a devoted Godly man who makes a lot of mistakes. 
He is against abortion [under normal circumstances] and is against drinking alcohol but is very respectful of women. I am always impressed by his kindness, willingness to be helpful to others. Because of the depth of determination that is inherent in his character it gets us through the tough times that life throws our way.

He loves to fish and enjoys sports and nature. He has many strengths one of which is his dedication and always been a hands-on-dad. A very hard worker is he.  My hubby is honest, humorous, forthright and a man of integrity. He is also a handsome balding man. 😀

He knows how much I hate to [gas up] so every weekend he fills up my car. He opens a door for me to walk through and lifts heavy things for me…I like chivalry.

A happy marriage is the union of two good forgivers.  Robert Quillen

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To buy Beverley’s Book “Feet First” Click Cover for direct link to Amazon for purchase.

It is so much fun to go for a walk  [don’t forget your camera] and observe the birds and the bees and the flowers and the trees and yes the butterflies!

It is nice to see nature as an adult but to see it as a child or through a child’s eye and delight is extraordinary!

Just like the nursery singing rhyme I wrote while rocking my middle grand-baby to sleep.

Birds and the bees
And the leaves
And the trees
 There are ma-ny
Things to see,

                            But I want to see
A but-ter-fly
I want to see
A but-ter-fly,
But-ter-fly
But-ter-fly,

I want to see
The wings of a
but-ter-fly
I want to see
The wings of a
But-ter-fly,


But-ter-fly
But-ter-fly
 Hmmmmmm
 Hmmmmmm
 Hmmmmmm

There is so much beauty in nature and it’s so rewarding to learn as much as possible. To examine the butterfly is no exception.

The butterfly struggle from cocoon to flight is difficult and restrictive. This is nature`s perfection in action to force the fluid from the body to the wings so upon entry into the world, it could fly.

So it seems that a butterfly must struggle to live, without that struggle he would never fly. Do you think there is some truth to that for you and I?

The struggles, the trials, the trash, the garbage, the manipulation, the abuse, the nightmares, the depression, the night sweats, myriad of repercussions and maladies we may have suffered in childhood and thereafter not exactly the preferred path but in spite of that – the struggle made us soar.

beauty + courage + freedom + creativity = flight

Boy I hope you don’t feel that it’s a cliché or a platitude but we overcame and continue to be overcomers.

The butterfly – flies strong and free and so can “weeeeeee”……

Truly, It has made us who we are and hopefully we [ including me ] will continue to develop and not be afraid of change. ……Change prepares you and I to move beyond the perceived limitations.

Don’t feel you are alone- we are in this together so take heart!

WE beat the odds…
So it is perseverance that won the day…..

I am no longer defined by my past (struggle) but it prepared me for my flight plan !

 

My son spent some time in Guatemala and came back with a legend. While he was gone I watched a documentary on the Blue Butterfly. I also did a brief research project on The Blue Butterfly. The three events converged on the following tale!

Mayans in Guatemala & 

The Blue Butterfly 

“Mayans in Guatemala speak of simultaneous Twin Realities: the world of dreams and the world of work.

These two worlds are likened to the opposing wings of a Butterfly: the dream world is one wing, and the awake world is the other.

They believe the wings must connect at the Heart of the Butterfly to fly and live.

Real life occurs because of the interaction of the wings. The Life is the Butterfly’s Heart. Life, like the Butterfly’s Heart, is kept alive by the two opposing, mirroring twin-like wings.”

For me; it is important right now to not only have a world of reality but to have a dream world.  Together I celebrate a complete life from the heart.

Welcome to the Blog Tour of the Release of

The Butterfly Effect

Niamh Clune – founder of Plum Tree Books

Has  invited the members to participate in this creative project. The members are collective of artists, authors, poets, photographers, painters, editors, book designers, technicians, bloggers musicians each talented in their own right. One enjoyable motive in any of Plum Tree Books’ project is to not only promote one’s own work but the work of all other members.

 Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly.

 The Butterfly Effect is:

 A small action that led to a devastating event or its opposite

 A small decision that changed your life for good or ill

 Saying a small thing that ended or began a relationship

 A small decision that marked a wrong turn in your life or in the life of someone else

 An act of environmental vandalism that contributes to climate change

 A small act of environmental consideration that makes a difference to the whole

Direct Links  to Plum Tree Books and The Butterfly Effect:

Here is my  ‘true story’ Contribution entitled  ‘The Imprint’

Imprint

Our youngest, a delightful, vibrant, mite of a child known to us as ‘Pooh’ or ‘Half Pint’, Joanne; a small thing that caused such large love in our family.

It was the beginning of her first year at school.
I heard the usual rustle of papers.
The delight in her eyes said this was different.
“Look mommy this is for you!”

Bending down eye to eye.

“Happy Mother’s Day!”
“Thank you!”

Looking at an exquisite gift I felt a combination of blissful goose bumps, and a warm cloak over my spirit.

Holding my breath – her heart, her eyes, her voice, her petite smooth hands clasped the nape of my neck with such a little-big hug. With a skip of a heartbeat I felt such immense love for my baby girl.

Her sweet little cheeks were kindly receiving my soft kisses, what a deep love that I felt at that special moment! My heavenly father entrusted the care of this little one to me.

A springtime of wondrous conversation ensued before Joanne settled into play time.

Instinctively I knew I held something precious. Through blinding tears I looked down once again at the single footprint.

Obviously the teacher had inked Joanne’s foot and helped Joanne to place her foot unto this card stock.

An inner assurance compelled me to think this will mean something more later.
Looking around the room.
“Where to put this!”
“Ahh her baby Album.”
Safely tucked away and almost forgotten except to show friends all my children’s treasures maybe once a year.

Busy living my life, oft times I could see the footprint in my dreams.
The last child left home; more silence, just quiet enough to hear the whisper, “write your story”.

More time passed. Out of the blue with no forethought I went to the office, copied the footprint, reversed it, and placed the two foot prints side by side. Now a pair.

Looking at the set of foot prints I remembered what my mother told me many years previous, “You know, You were born Feet First.” That’s it- that will be a part of my book.

Never resting, time is flying, just maybe I’m ready to Tell my story.

In retrospect I see a simple gesture, an astronomical moment for my child Joanne.

For me as a mom, something tangible to propel my future, catalyst to gaining strength to tell my story; to expose truth.

Yes “We can carve our epitaph
In the lives of our children
Far more than on the
Stone of our death!” [1]

However what about the imprint a child makes in our lives. But who would have imagined that the child, my child, would be the pivotal one, the pinnacle and surreal moment to healing?

Poignant moment to freedom.

Nervousness seemed to dissolve, holding the foot print once again, and all that which paralyzes action. The sequence of events, the threads that lead to courage to expose my personal life to the world.

The opportunity to create awareness. I did not imagine this future was possible. This journey of mine helped me realize, abuse is unnatural. We are created for freedom and a strong self-esteem, a hope and a future.

The icing on the cake, a set of Joanne’s feet is on every single page of my published

book Feet First.


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[1] Beverley Hoyles, Work Manual  Insight, Impact and Influence 2012

 

Tweet:  @BeverleyHoyles

Blog:  https://feetfirstbook.wordpress.com/

Beverley’s Book “Feet First” available:

www.feetfirst-book.com

 

If you would like to check out the different blogs below; I am sure you will enjoy each amazing author.[ Each is a member of Plum Tree Books ]

June 9th http://www.shevata-cccole.blogspot.co.uk/ C.c.Cole

June 10th http://deannnative.posterous.com/ DeAnne Townes Jr.

June 11th http://ontheplumtree.wordpress.com Niamh Clune

June 12thhttp://mapelba.wordpress.com/ Marta Pelrine-Bacon

June 13th http://ontheplumtree.wordpress.com Tonia Harris

June 14th http://deannnative.posterous.com De Ann “Native” Townes Jr.

June 15th http://nicolesmith.mosaicglobe.com/ Nicole Smith

June 18 http://vampiremaman.wordpress.com Juliette Kings

June 21 http://sooziebird.blogspot.com/ Susie Bertie

June 25th https://feetfirstbook.wordpress.com/ Beverley Ann Hoyles

June 27th http://ontheplumtree.wordpress.com Niamh Clune

June 29th http://girlseeksplace.wordpress.com Brianna Solkowski

June 30th http://http://www.jlbcreatives.blogspot.ca/ Janet Beasley

 

Fascination

The widely accepted definition is the state of being intensely interested-captivation or a feeling of great liking for something wonderful and unusual- enchantment.

Having a sense of fascination in life [for me] makes me smile even more.

Laughter is the best medicine” – There are so many benefits of smiling and laughter it becomes a never-ending cycle.  Finding a fascination in life makes me smile and smiling adds fascination to my life. Here are three fascinating facts about our smiles.

  1. Some Psychologist says that smiling can lift you out of a dreadful mood even if you force the smile.
  2. Smiling will naturally boost our immune system because we are relaxed and less stressed.
  3.  Smiling is contagious. Try and keep that frown on while looking at a person who is smiling.

The world surrounding us is a fascinating thing; how we were created and how the universe works is also very intriguing.

The spectrum of fascination from science and innovation to bird watching, climate change to the life cycle of insects, people to innumerable animal species. There is so much in our universe that we can enjoy.

High school was my introduction to the study of Clouds. Believe it or not so many are fascinated by clouds. There is so much to be captivated by whether you are a kid or a scientist. From finding animals, shapes and other formations in a cloud to understanding the benefits of clouds. Clouds flying high up in the sky – appears as  bunches of fluffy white cotton!

There are two basic shapes of clouds: cumulus (big puffy type) and stratus which are (more flat and spread out).

Clouds protect us from sunrays or provide rain. It’s magnificent to fly above the clouds – it engages my creativity.

As a kid I enjoyed watching the bumble bee. The bumble bee’s amazing ability to fly using its wings and thorax muscles.

I love watching those fuzzy wuzzy fat little ones fly.

The most spectacular thing was seeing the northern lights [Aurora Borealis] dance across the sky like a kaleidoscope of color.  The most awe-inspiring moment.

At our cottage I saw two of the largest rainbows intersect now that was remarkable!

The first time I looked through a telescope and saw the stars was awesome and engaged my fascination to look closer at our universe.

Our universe. The distance from Earth to Pluto is approximately 4,000,000,000 miles. It takes about five hours for Pluto’s light to travel to Earth. Our nearest star Alpha Centauri is over 4 light years away! It is estimated that our own galaxy The Milky Way contains at least 200 billion stars! Our nearest galaxy the Andromeda galaxy is 2.5 million light years away and estimated to contain about one trillion stars! So much more exciting info. Of course you know that.

The complexity of life!

How music transports our soul and thoughts to a higher level. How it can make one laugh another cry and another awe-inspired.

Let’s have a fascination for life. Be completely captivated in whatever you’re doing. Whether you’re studying math, cooking dinner, feeding your pets, digging ditches or raising your children—be fascinated. Because when we’re fascinated, we have a better focus, attention span, more engaged and happier and do the best job ever.

Be excited about learning things on a daily basis. Be captivated by knowledge that will increase our ability to live more productively.

Children live in a natural state of awe and wonder. Children are synonymous with wonderment. They think that everything is worth paying attention to and learning from. They listen and ask so many questions-Such inquiring minds.

To reclaim that childlike awe, figure out what fascinates you most about life. Science? Universe? Technology? Nature? Ocean? The Stars? People? Places? Relationships? Ecosystem? Carpentry? Writing? God? Make a list of the top-20 most fascinating things in your life.

Hypervelocity Stars

If you’ve ever gazed at the night sky, you’ve probably wished upon a shooting star (which are really meteors).

But shooting stars do exist, and they’re as rare as one in 100 million.

In 2005, astronomers discovered the first “hypervelocity” star careening out of a galaxy at nearly 530 miles per second (10 times faster than the ordinary star movement).

Have you ever gone out on a summer evening to catch fireflies? The fireflies flit and fly everywhere!

Pay attention to the world around you. Cultivate your God given talents and gifts and interests.

If a human being knows what he really wants out of life, then he’ll find the ways and resources to get there. There is within every human, the desire to be fascinated.

God wants us to enjoy the creation He has given. He especially wants us to be captivated by His Word.  The word of God is a living and breathing two-edged sword; it brings life into our very spirits as we read it.

We need to talk to God and as we do so we will develop that relationship and become enthralled with the creator of the heavens and the earth; God Himself. It will be like honey to the soul.  We will be a satisfied, fascinated believer who is strong.

God not only heals us through the work of Jesus but shows us the beauty and the divine that can satisfy the desire of fascination and awe. Individuals captivated by God seldom feel discontented.

What captivates [fascinate] our heats usually controls us. So inherent in this statement is a caution not to go beyond a normal fascination in things of this world that would take our attention away from the most important things of life.

Please consider my book Feet First

Check out my website www.feetfirst-book.com

Tweet:  @BeverleyHoyles

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