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The truth so help me God.

Surreal God moment that I did not orchestrate.
It was a compulsion to write, yes it was cathartic and yes it changed my life forever.

I don’t do something of this magnitude (writing my life story exposing secrets of my heart) in a rash way.
I thought, prayed, weighed it time and again. But there was a moment of no return; Through tears and sobs and soul’s agony as the words began to pour out.

60 days to write and 10 years in draft format then to the publisher. All our life savings and what seem to be a thousand conversations, legalities, explanations, edits and approvals.

I remember the day my husband and i went to the publisher – my hubby waited in the car as I went inside. It was like a spiritual walk. I was taken to the conference room and actually feeling a little anxious. The lady in charge of my book entered the room and after a few formalities gave me the first copy. Holding it close meant I was holding my whole life and others close to my heart. I have to admit it was a huge surreal moment.

The copy of the book was a result of a type of birth that should not be trifled with but looked at, touched, felt and cherished, examined, loved even, but then again that’s an author’s viewpoint.

At first I thought family and friends supported ME and FEET FIRST.
It was false. Many lacked courage to read it. Many felt by reading somehow betrayed my mother.

Yes I faced disappointment.
The question was asked of me: “why you? Why did you have to write it, there are thousands of books written about abuse?”

Beverley Hoyles CVR resize very small

Truth doesn’t always give the response you expect.
Truth doesn’t mean you don’t love.
In fact courage to speak truth for me was the greatest love.

I found that in speaking truth brought an array of disappointments.

Some read the book in critical condescending ways with a criticism to find ways to destroy my credibility. Others got bits and pieces from the book via another’s negative opinion thereby tarnishing what would have been something special for them.

I have tried to overlook that part of the disappointment for many reasons.

Then there were numerous people via the Internet, amazon, book signings came a multitude of comments, emails, thank you’s and calls. Simply an unexpected humbling experience.

Do I give up because some would not support my efforts?
No!
I am in the draft process of the manual that would accompany Feet First.

It has been mind-boggling when I think of the people who have contributed to the manual.

I am humbled AND honored by the path to each one of them.

I know I may not have a ‘come over for tea on Saturday and we’ll chat’ type relationship but my life has been enriched by them, their values, blogs, books, heart.

I took 9 months off; a type of sabbatical from the manual because I felt physically drained but I’m ready to get cracking again toward its completion.

I pray someday that all of my family would have the courage to read my book Feet First.

I do hope many more will  read Feet First on sale at amazon or available from our office. It’s okay you can love it or hate it; your choice.

If you are willing to do a review I will give you a complimentary hard copy or Ebook format.

Here are three ways to purchase Feet First from Amazon:
Amazon UK

Amazon .COM

Amazon.CA
Or by email at:  feetfirstbook@gmail.com

It’s silly to say I wrote a book for no one to read it. I want people to read it and be blessed or the very least, a book to read.

Childhood abuse can cast a long shadow over your life influencing your emotional state, psychological state, physical state, health and how you relate to others. I believe I learned that while writing the book as the author of my life story and so much more as I am writing this second book.

I guess that gives clarity of why I wrote Feet First. I would like to lighten the shadow on the lives of my siblings, my family, my friends, my world. To personally make a positive impact on anyone that would allow my words to enter their world. To expose abuse for what it is and be willing to warn, to educate.

Patty Rase Hopson said that Abuse changes your life…Fight Back and change the life of your abusers by Breaking Your Silence on Abuse!

I believe this initial step puts the control of your life back into your hands and a necessary step toward healing and recovery.  I also sincerely believe it will help thousands in peril at this very moment.

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For not only does sound reason direct us to refuse the guidance of those who do or teach anything wrong, but it is by all means vital for the lover of truth, regardless of the threat of death, to choose to do and say what is right even before saving his own life. A.W. Tozer

Truth has no special time of its own. Its hour is now – always.   Albert Schweitzer

Even in literature and art, no man who bothers about originality will ever be original: whereas if you simply try to tell the truth (without caring twopence how often it has been told before) you will, nine times out of ten, become original without ever having noticed it.”
― C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity

Thanks for reading my bLoG!

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Impossibilities!

This is the cover of my book with slight changes to adapt to this blog post!

feet first and impossibilities

Impossibilities!

There comes a time in the life of every person when they are faced with a seemingly impossible situation.

How do we conduct ourselves during these times?

Why does God allow them?

Can we really prepare for them?
How will we respond?

 

I do believe in the creator [my choice] and often I have to say there is only one thing to do.

Meet the creator in meditation and prayer and walk in faith.

Why would we become discouraged?

Why would my heart become troubled?

What happens when fear and faith collide?

When we are faced with impossibilities; words begin forming in our minds such as give up, fear, loss, abandon, hopeless, no direction but down. Sounds so familiar doesn’t it?

To accept your lot in life and just make the best of it is what society teaches.

But in Faith I want to alter my/your reasoning concerning the difficult occurrences in each of our lives.

In many respects adversities turn into an opportunity of blessing. I’m just an ordinary person facing the impossibilities BUT believing in the possibilities.

No, the day may not transpire as I had planned BUT there are impossibilities to overcome.

I purpose in my heart to bring honor to God to man and myself…I know I may fail at times but as-God-as-my-witness I SHALL pick myself up and see the OPPORTUNITIES the POSSIBILITIES outweigh the impossibilities.

WHY?

Because the more time I spend with the creator in  meditation and respect the more I gain in faith.

Impossible
the tide gone forth
storm revealed
innermost
without,
vicious, savage
tempest-tossed
no way out
painful and sad
spirit moans and groans
of the unthinkable,
 
with one hand
companioned
blitse of prayer
bursting for
positiive embrace
the soul is fired
in hope
of the smallest grain
dare to run
venture to fight
destroy the
brute force trauma,
 
a revolution
start of an army
one mind
one thought
believe
initiate faith
to finally see
what was unseen
the impossibility
disguised
incognito
as a
brilliant
beautiful
blusterous
opportunity…

beverleyhoyles

april 7, 2013

possibilities

May your day be well.

Thanks for reading my bLoG!

Man

www.feetfirst-book.com

Day 11  of my 30 Day Thankfulness Challenge; I am thankful for Friends. 😀

Real friends stay after seeing your weakness, mistakes, successes, achievements.  They stay near when your world crumbles beneath your feet.  Giving you breathing room to grieve then steps in at the right time to give more comforting hugs. They share in your joys and is the loudest clapper.

A friend loves at all times.  They aren’t afraid to say; No that’s not right now smarten up or that was fabulous.  Friends by their support and commitment like the title of the song ” you raise me up to more than I can be”.

I had 3 really close friends when I was a teen though the provinces and time has kept us from being within visiting opportunities I still value their friendship.  I love them dearly.

Even in these past few years I have gained friends in the oddest of ways including Facebook.  Yes I realize we can’t get to know each other in the perfect sense but we have a camaraderie at its best via internet, Skype and chat.  They have stepped in at a very poignant moment to encourage me. 

Since 2002 I have been on a clear path of going forward but circumstance foundered somewhat just recently but some would dare to hold out their hand to comfort, encourage and uplift.

When you have friends you have the ultimate.

Friends often come via creation. Animals and birds have a tendency to stay close.  For that I am grateful.

OF course my husband is my best friend and he is the most committed of friends.  I thank God for him.

My children have been a blessing as friends as well and for that I am eternally grateful.

When you have friends it feels like home.

Pertinent Quotes:

Proverbs 27:9 “The heartfelt counsel of a friend is as sweet as perfume and incense.”

“Friendship is unnecessary, like philosophy, like art… It has no survival value; rather it is one of those things that give value to survival.” ~ C.S Lewis

“Is any pleasure on earth as great as a circle of Christian friends by a good fire?” ~ C.S Lewis

“The next best thing to being wise oneself is to live in a circle of those who are.” ~ C.S Lewis

Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends.

Good friends are like Stars, you don’t always see them, but you know they are always there.

Day 4 of my recent  30 Days of Thankfulness.

I am thankful for Daughter #2 [twin to daughter #1] who has her first CD “For Your Glory”  and first single “Kindness” is available. She can play any musical instrument she decides she would like to play.

Thankfully she has overcome illness as unto death but is now an overcomer.

Excellent qualities too many to name; but she is dedicated in her beliefs and very focused in her direction.  She loves singing and playing all her instruments.  She loves to teach music to anyone who lends an ear. She does have a desire to sing for the rest of her life.

She still maintains a youthful heart of joy and excitement and loves dogs. What can I say all around good person who loves to brag that she is now a godmother to a special little girl.

Two pertinent quotes:

The psalmist said;  I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

Deana wrote a song “For your Glory” on her album that this beautiful verse certainly applies: You thought evil against me: but God turned it into good, that he might exalt me, as at present you see, and might save many people.

To check out Deana’s website or purchase Deana’s Album/CD click on the album cover below!

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